Cold Boys Eye's

you are here
you smooth out these desert lines I cough out from
my black lungs.
These are the thoughts of Cold Boys Eye's
and they are his.
Tell him they are his and I relinquish them.

my lover
He is here
fingering silver , steel and lead
all in a barrel
criss crossed patterns for wintering birds
dropping bits of bark for harrowing captives.
Each with a single letter
that led me home through sweet honey birches.

Deathbent
grey sky singlemindedly purposed a gesture of love
but I told it the sky I loved was not so
and I was angered for imposters burning ash lips.

and green grasses now honey pale yellow under winters tide
returning health to the soil I avouch you headway , straight forward
your truth.

not a time for two

He is here
and He rose with His fingerlings of silver
point blank for Cold Boy's Eyes

~ Enough ~

oh but she hurts
the mourning dead
on two leg stances of stories fouled by water of fearlings.

Cold Boys Eye's
fell from the sky like hawk eyes of heaven

and I
I heard it break in me.

My lovers hand straigtened to me to stop
as Cold Boys Eye's fell

~ stop..... ~

 My Lovers eyes warm as my winters fire
full of pain to see in me trepidations death approaching the splitting
of my heartache into fibers.

~ You , have had enough.... and You cannot help...
Cold Boys Eye's must go. ~

Cold Boys Eye's fell to the ground
and he rose and ran into the forest I will never know , or desire.
　
My lover keeps me intwined into a fiberous few
green twined grasses.
Presses hard the silver between His hands
and somewhere , somehow binds to me His remembering story.
A kiss for my cheek.

~ The watching dear lights has shed one more feather ~

This is Dear Brother , Lover

His Luminescence

into the dark cool of His eyes
the watermark luminesence
blue green.

the only thing that keeps me
the only
He is

wrapped in water and tiny sticks
the smell of the earth hides me

let me go
and forget
I dont wanna live here
to a time where you were not
and all was not

lover breathes fire
his chest pounds over everything
and everything is nought.

rain and sky
overcast and smooth outlooking lines
go to bed all you people

I walk with these trees
until his hand slips into mine
and He takes me.
it is all I can do but to survive

I am captivated by his gesture

long sought after moments
the strength of my heart
it is the smooth smooth
feeling of heartache
warming brighter
when He holds me in memorandum
of His light
nearly new , nearly in me.

~ Dance with me ~

I cant break the din of crashing on the inside of my head
it cools into evening
my evening sun
my lovers letters
drift off His finger tips and onto my skin.

deaf from the scattering
oh so He gathers
Bring His heart pressed into mine
I cant make it

His hope and restraint pull me in
and I push against His vest
but why struggle against my Maker ?

I am caught by His eyes
and His luminescence blue
drowns me.
My my my
unforgettable

Colapse

stones grey as setting light amongst the storm clad rain
I walk...
but I cant keep upright.
upon my knees does staggering colapse my fortitude in awe.
shame and guilt have rot away.
I come
because nothing can keep me away.
All in me reverberates the sound I hear
But no auditory perception I perceive but the
hum on my skin.
and....
You
are in everything...
I cant breathe free and I dont want it.
I move a little along on hands and knees
but I cant withstand
and upon the cool and warm stones I let me go.
these rays pierce my soul
a love
that has never been spoken from mortal lips
it cant be formed on tongue...
It is
a substance force unmovable sensation perpetuating thought
of waves with unrelenting pulse,
He Is

I with heavy limbs
without strain
without regret
without resistance
Offer myself
a living sacrifice....
　

White Dark Of Moon

He is a knot in fine grain wood
smooth and lovely
no splinter for me.
Only cedar peaks my senses
heavy without cold hearted hands
sandlewood and night smoke.
Drown me lovely.

cold out of doors
the fire brewed
out of pure coals
incense rises from lips.

I forget who I am
or where I am
and why should I care
if I am with
great content ?

I taste cinnamon
pungent , stinging and sharp

Silent refuge
the snowfall of incubated dreams
fall outside.
Silent refuge in His forest.
Inside here with Him
am I warm.

He moves very slowly
or not slowly at all
all of time is all of Him.

There is no love that I have for Him
that could be contained...He turns
from keeping His fire
at the thought I have had.

He rises as His smile swallows everything.

" In doors , in doors...
let me keep you very well
dont you know wolves smell distress
and blood runs hot ? In the night watches
little dove, nothing shall by any means harm
you if you cleave unto me "

Elixer
in His eyes
and the sun fades into white dark of moon.

Naked As The Sky

many a thought a concourse lies ahead
I wish that it were dead.
Come save me
dwell with me in cold quarters tucked away in hollows meandering.

Let the cold outside be a new reminder of the warmth within
lest I forget.

Make me Entirely new
I fall baren in the snow with these words upon my lips
embrace them now I raise my hands.
Entirely new
Erase me.

Snow on my lips rise my fallen hero
brush off these knees.

I check my sides for things I have forgotten
but memory reminds me I dont need them.

Should I remain this cold ?
or brace myself ?

Naked as the sky
I will not hide.

Deny thyself

I fall backwards into the white
please drag me indoors
Ive not the strength
I am
Entirely Yours.

Pierce My Throat

back up of words
there is timelessness that I wait upon
I have an unquenchable need.

Pierce my throat
then maybe words strong enough would pour out.
He meets me and ...

God close my mouth for the hush
and all that pours out is love
inside me
warm and suffocating ....
but God forbid the one who keeps me from this !!
From Him !

a thunder inside me
rolls back my senses
none ever known
and I could... I beg ...
I ask... to remain always in this.
Tears are inconspicious to me
I know them not until I wake from these.

My Lover
God give me death
If I ever forget.

Dear Lover
poured out
sweet blue and near
I held down my sorrow
but you lifted it off of me.
It came up my throat.
Only waiting
and now you have me again and I will not move.
Not for another.
You've placed your thumbs upon my eyes
taken back that which was not mine.

Right here behind the bones in my chest
Right here in my throat
It cant be contained.
my living worship

Oh my Love
I know you
and nothing can compare
everything, everything , everything
everything else
is worthless

Till The Break Of Day

Full of turmoils wandering sea and treacherous path
full of thieves.
Cast long and hard upon with threatening messes
must we impart a joy. A pride and privledge goes afore us , as in His stead.
I press out languishing refreshments into palms upturned for mortal help
but none may come , for we must push aside our mortal trust.
Stare into eyes not our own and be restored.
Crushed hard from dust to dust
what else must we endure that He has not ?
Singularly brother and sister Godly counsel is a warming meal
but wholly surrender to Him , for though we promise bare anothers burdens
so sorely missed we this goal..we glory in Him alone.
There is nothing yet to offer but your heart
and body keep.
As Jacob wrestled this we must, from joy to sorrow, from sorrow to joy
working out our sweetest love.
I am content to stay
alone or with a few
but I know where with my hope does only lie
and happiness fills me with great resolve

Thorns and Berries

I have not the strength
I encourage not myself any further
and anguish knocks me down into the soil I know.
I know it.

harbor not such conditions a foot with your mind sister.
harbor them not
please.
I am here, I havent forgotten.

but I know not my way
clear before
now a distant shadow of something...
something and I discover
its uncovered now and I am confused.
d
arling oh the nights of hot terror
the songs of sweet tears
the calling of ..the calling of you
and you listened.

my tears
I cant escape them

Remember now as we have this forgetting
my arms around you... dont push me away
Ive been silent for 3 months. Now that you hear me
Now that the pain will wane there will be another pain.
The aching dull throb of the need I have placed in your ribs.
I know.... you can let them come...those tears
All is not wasted you have learned and I will grow wild berries
and trees in our forest...as you wait.
Oh my little girl , cant you feel my hands on your heart ?
How to escape ?
I wasnt me
Here now.... shhhh
let me touch your face...touch the tears away
my lovely

Why did you make me leave the protection of our forest home in the first
place ??!!

Oh love, gentle now , dont push so hard.
Didnt you accept the need ?
and you are still accepting the need.
You are not hardened though you wish you were.
You love too much now. You feel me in your veins.
You feel me around your heart. Dont fight , let me hold you.
Much good will come to you.

I dont care for it, who am I ?

oh but love ! You chose me !
you could have chosen the other
for the sake of having.
But your heart couldnt abide.
I will not forget

Red As Snow

take me home dear brother
a bleeding branch lodged in my ribs.
You come for me as always
as you must my Lord.
slain here in this snow I color it red.
A delightful song plays out its course about the sky
and earth to have my head.
I try to remove it but I cant
you know I cant and anger arises in my chest
for the thing caught. Break off the ends and stand
what a sorry sight am I.
Pushes me down I lie where I fell and stare into the whiteness
above me. Dear birds , they are the largest Ive ever seen.
I listen to them talk their little song along with the other
but all is put to shame , all is silent when footing takes hold
and I , I listen , Dear God , thank God I can hear !
the snow pressed to the ground
and the cold seeps into my bones.

~ from me now you will hear.....

My darling , she ran , she ran away and stopped up her ears.
She went from the hollow of my keeping , my protection.
There with I let her, but my pleading was present in a softness
she felt darker than the death of nights chill. But a voice called
quickly after and through the branches lo she went. These months
far less but breaking these bones has ensued. The other one I will deal
with and she will let me....
My tears on my face as I saw my darling here turning the cold dark red
and this branch wasnt meant for grafting in !
Torn and bent in her side ~

these steps came and barely could I see as I turned my head
He knelt next to me
His tears ran to the earth
come for me son of man
take this mortalness home and by it by death.
I felt the touch of His hand upon my wrist
pulling my arm.
but still I was feeling this thorn !
God ! How much more ?!

 ~I will lift you up.... what has happened my handmaiden, my vessel,
my pearl ~