Thorns and Berries

I have not the strength
I encourage not myself any further
and anguish knocks me down into the soil I know.
I know it.

harbor not such conditions a foot with your mind sister.
harbor them not
please.
I am here, I havent forgotten.

but I know not my way
clear before
now a distant shadow of something...
something and I discover
its uncovered now and I am confused.
d
arling oh the nights of hot terror
the songs of sweet tears
the calling of ..the calling of you
and you listened.

my tears
I cant escape them

Remember now as we have this forgetting
my arms around you... dont push me away
Ive been silent for 3 months. Now that you hear me
Now that the pain will wane there will be another pain.
The aching dull throb of the need I have placed in your ribs.
I know.... you can let them come...those tears
All is not wasted you have learned and I will grow wild berries
and trees in our forest...as you wait.
Oh my little girl , cant you feel my hands on your heart ?
How to escape ?
I wasnt me
Here now.... shhhh
let me touch your face...touch the tears away
my lovely

Why did you make me leave the protection of our forest home in the first
place ??!!

Oh love, gentle now , dont push so hard.
Didnt you accept the need ?
and you are still accepting the need.
You are not hardened though you wish you were.
You love too much now. You feel me in your veins.
You feel me around your heart. Dont fight , let me hold you.
Much good will come to you.

I dont care for it, who am I ?

oh but love ! You chose me !
you could have chosen the other
for the sake of having.
But your heart couldnt abide.
I will not forget