Pierce My Throat

back up of words
there is timelessness that I wait upon
I have an unquenchable need.

Pierce my throat
then maybe words strong enough would pour out.
He meets me and ...

God close my mouth for the hush
and all that pours out is love
inside me
warm and suffocating ....
but God forbid the one who keeps me from this !!
From Him !

a thunder inside me
rolls back my senses
none ever known
and I could... I beg ...
I ask... to remain always in this.
Tears are inconspicious to me
I know them not until I wake from these.

My Lover
God give me death
If I ever forget.

Dear Lover
poured out
sweet blue and near
I held down my sorrow
but you lifted it off of me.
It came up my throat.
Only waiting
and now you have me again and I will not move.
Not for another.
You've placed your thumbs upon my eyes
taken back that which was not mine.

Right here behind the bones in my chest
Right here in my throat
It cant be contained.
my living worship

Oh my Love
I know you
and nothing can compare
everything, everything , everything
everything else
is worthless

Till The Break Of Day

Full of turmoils wandering sea and treacherous path
full of thieves.
Cast long and hard upon with threatening messes
must we impart a joy. A pride and privledge goes afore us , as in His stead.
I press out languishing refreshments into palms upturned for mortal help
but none may come , for we must push aside our mortal trust.
Stare into eyes not our own and be restored.
Crushed hard from dust to dust
what else must we endure that He has not ?
Singularly brother and sister Godly counsel is a warming meal
but wholly surrender to Him , for though we promise bare anothers burdens
so sorely missed we this goal..we glory in Him alone.
There is nothing yet to offer but your heart
and body keep.
As Jacob wrestled this we must, from joy to sorrow, from sorrow to joy
working out our sweetest love.
I am content to stay
alone or with a few
but I know where with my hope does only lie
and happiness fills me with great resolve

Thorns and Berries

I have not the strength
I encourage not myself any further
and anguish knocks me down into the soil I know.
I know it.

harbor not such conditions a foot with your mind sister.
harbor them not
please.
I am here, I havent forgotten.

but I know not my way
clear before
now a distant shadow of something...
something and I discover
its uncovered now and I am confused.
d
arling oh the nights of hot terror
the songs of sweet tears
the calling of ..the calling of you
and you listened.

my tears
I cant escape them

Remember now as we have this forgetting
my arms around you... dont push me away
Ive been silent for 3 months. Now that you hear me
Now that the pain will wane there will be another pain.
The aching dull throb of the need I have placed in your ribs.
I know.... you can let them come...those tears
All is not wasted you have learned and I will grow wild berries
and trees in our forest...as you wait.
Oh my little girl , cant you feel my hands on your heart ?
How to escape ?
I wasnt me
Here now.... shhhh
let me touch your face...touch the tears away
my lovely

Why did you make me leave the protection of our forest home in the first
place ??!!

Oh love, gentle now , dont push so hard.
Didnt you accept the need ?
and you are still accepting the need.
You are not hardened though you wish you were.
You love too much now. You feel me in your veins.
You feel me around your heart. Dont fight , let me hold you.
Much good will come to you.

I dont care for it, who am I ?

oh but love ! You chose me !
you could have chosen the other
for the sake of having.
But your heart couldnt abide.
I will not forget

Red As Snow

take me home dear brother
a bleeding branch lodged in my ribs.
You come for me as always
as you must my Lord.
slain here in this snow I color it red.
A delightful song plays out its course about the sky
and earth to have my head.
I try to remove it but I cant
you know I cant and anger arises in my chest
for the thing caught. Break off the ends and stand
what a sorry sight am I.
Pushes me down I lie where I fell and stare into the whiteness
above me. Dear birds , they are the largest Ive ever seen.
I listen to them talk their little song along with the other
but all is put to shame , all is silent when footing takes hold
and I , I listen , Dear God , thank God I can hear !
the snow pressed to the ground
and the cold seeps into my bones.

~ from me now you will hear.....

My darling , she ran , she ran away and stopped up her ears.
She went from the hollow of my keeping , my protection.
There with I let her, but my pleading was present in a softness
she felt darker than the death of nights chill. But a voice called
quickly after and through the branches lo she went. These months
far less but breaking these bones has ensued. The other one I will deal
with and she will let me....
My tears on my face as I saw my darling here turning the cold dark red
and this branch wasnt meant for grafting in !
Torn and bent in her side ~

these steps came and barely could I see as I turned my head
He knelt next to me
His tears ran to the earth
come for me son of man
take this mortalness home and by it by death.
I felt the touch of His hand upon my wrist
pulling my arm.
but still I was feeling this thorn !
God ! How much more ?!

 ~I will lift you up.... what has happened my handmaiden, my vessel,
my pearl ~