Fire Brand

brambles brothers disguise
come underneath these frozen
thorns. let your foot down, your heart it beats.
I cant escape these frost bitten thunders.
My echoing silouhette will not die into the ground
for she reminds me so so often of your love.

feathers in my hair
tangled in the great green bite of birch bedded down.

Help me... hear
Help me... see

press these green twigs into my tongue and write your words
brand the bones of my chest ...yours
cross your heart over mine with full residence !

dance your bones around me here
lay down my fears and melt them into the ice these deserted foes.
rise along the strands of flowing air ..crackling with your inhabitation.
Follow thy hand
your fire brand
into the hills and wrap these thorns like leather around my wrists
in rememberance.

you braid tall grasses into my hair
with the smoke of the clouds and I honor you with my life.
placed into my hand thy stone of love.

Dear brother...dear
fire of life
my heart cannot contain..
not a thing but these sparks.
the imploding din inside my head
the crushing hum
my soul lives alight.
and I will run aflamed with joy zig zag across the plain you have created
me dust to dust

You Beautiful Vine

you beautiful vine
strangely performing in unstable vessels.
breaking over us with winds to level these false structures.
you break my heart and come please do it again so that I might
feel... your love restoring me.
you with astonishment instilled in once yet children we spoke and died
to it... bring round again in us.
you who flood me with tears
sorrow with sweet honey
satisfied with brokeness
clusters in the soil.
I am here
with Him
finality my love
His hands around my wrists
crush these fragrant wishes
atop my head

Words Dont Flow

words dont flow
not anymore
a new way
a holding back way
bound up like a fount I used to know.
I wont rest till you meet me in the flowers
of this bed.
struggle in me
child , daughter little sister
shes mine and shes yours
so take a hold.
my hands look like my face as I turn them toward you
words dont flow
not a sense of them will I make
but blatantly confess this beautiful mess
and pain in me.
Daddy , Father wont you be
such a strange refrain.

I love you
with the weeping rocking that tick tocks upon the
ribs containing my soul.
for you I will go.
So I sit with you untied
you know me
and Im knowing you
and if its the pain that brings me
then all the more let it be
draw me please.
Jesus, blatant lover of my soul
I miss you
my words dont flow
they just come out
and I really dont care
as you untie me
unravel me from the knots.
your the sensation radiating my skin
the breathless hope
the shaking prayer
the tears that rejoice over you...
I always know Im home.
words dont flow
dear Lord
so let them be red
and not simply painted to diguise my hopes.
Im your love
broken in your arms
and thats where I always want to be.
Im here again
daily...daily... hourly I'll submit it.
no words make sense to me
hiding in their shadows of colors wont suffice
I love you Lord
my words dont flow
no not anymore
but the love that pours from my heart
is yours
and this little girl shes afraid
shes afraid
so Daddy im here
change me
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　

Lovers Branches

afraid to love
like bittersweet roses whose fragrance witholding.
but dare I to see the sun
and hide in the cool of my lovers branches.
Pulled tightly tapped strings
share the things I cant bare, sing for me.
I'll hide here with Him
in the nudge of His arms
and breathe in all His air.
Ive off and disappeared with the sigh of these birds.
Running like a child, forgetting everything.
If you so desire
I'll concede
to you I promise, yes.
Ive gathered wild mint
and rosemary
and lavenders my friend.
I saw him looking
I saw him laughing
and the birds fluttered from the branches
there these....
what shall you have dear Lord ?
here.. there.. and all of me.
sweetest quiet uninterrupted
lay down in these grasses
How can you press so hard into me ?
Father you make this ache so much more.
My brothers keeper
keep
the prayer of my lips.
　
　

With

the most beautiful picture
with the most beautiful sigh
glowing , showing all around
its articulate discovery to
you.

close me in
with this warmth
you shoo away my troubling thoughts
with your cool breath across my forhead
drive my attention to you...whom I love.

"you want me..yes you do
to dance with me
all as before
and we will dance a new dance
just now as your partaker
cuts cross the field "

lovely letter
scribe
you break all in me
red and bleeding
I feel your turning hands inside my chest
your tapping upon my back
I wanna be
be there and here.

Peacefully I plenty on this bread
this breath of life
I'll rise and meet you....
My hands touch the tapering tips in the field as I go
and I feel you near
nearer are thee.
My heart so warm
It leaps in its chest.
Suddenly , simply there your hand to mine...
no more this anxiety....
I...with my Lord.

Stealing Sparks

my good good
how I love you
straight
to you
no in between words
why should I frustrute
me ?
this way
or
that way
your here
my good good
how I love you
everything else so devoid
without you
you oh you
you
stir me with waves
you make me
dizzy
catch me up
I'll never go
I'll never come down
I'll fall into it
how I love
you
over cascading breath of life
with sparks stealing
one more time
wrap your intuitive wave of endless time
around my arms
pull me in
let me sleep in your eternal arms
can I raise my voice loud enough
to express this love
oh lovely
My good good
　
　
　
　

Atmospheric Soul Collide

father
love
if all these things would flow like the stream in my heart
that could keep time with you for me to disinegrate
my words into atmospheric distances....
I would
there is nothing that keeps time with you but for my
absolute resonating soul to collide with you
I cant have enough
never
pulling me by this
waves interpreting nothing capable of thoughts
nothing but being one
with you
so new
glory to glory
deep to deep
Im unwired
rewired
oh the things I do to myself
oh the things you have to do to me
paitience
my lovely one
brother under these quietest leaves
you played soldier son
hero
father
lover
you have changed my eyes
　
　
　
　
　

Forgotten Embrace

help me
as the cool sound flows down slowly
ebbing slower
fills my lungs
fills my mind
with
you
how ever
ever
Ever I Must
Submit
thrashing bout with such constraint
but even
even if I die
I'll find another piece of you
I dont know how you put up with me
your wrestless child
fightin you at every turn
to pull the briar thorns from my hands
and my feet
and my face.
Im here
Im just here Lord
I dont know what
I dont know where
but let my knees soak up the soil
from the tears that Ive shed
I'll just be quiet
even though I cant hear
I'll lay down
because Im failing off the bread of my own
and I cant do it any longer.
so quiet down
and please pierce my heart

oh darling dear
yes I hear
and though you may not
I will.
so broken
broken little flowers
all strewn about
did you think I have forgotten you?
Do you not remember my love ?
Did you think any any anything could seperate it
from you ?
You have forgotten

He comes to the forest
and picks me up again
and again
and so how I have forgotten His embrace
His wonderful touch
my wrestless heart
affords so much effort
so much fight
just let me be
here
for now
for now
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　

Paper Plane Forest

now tell me dear
who this
who this me
she is ?
shut me down
put me inside paper airplanes
motionless
she wont get in and she wont get out
these two are not and three
for heavens sake we must not let it be !
Death past now and future
covered in congenial controversies
let some kind of words wash over me
knives and little colored splinters
Id go
oh Id go
but they wont let me
false insinuations grease all these gears
and I'll set this beast on fire
and she'll fail
she'll fall in burning cinders heaped upon the ground
in rubble we'll amass our losses.
I love it
and we'll make it loud
God the louder the better !
Who are you ?!
You ! Shooting paper arrows at me ?
I'll go down , dont you worry
and I'll live a hundred of these
when she drowns
and lovely little love
they wont let me go
let me go and live
but im afraid
as they sell my sails for measily tiny bids
and
and
and
as this atrocity ocurrs
she'll finally fail
falling down
maybe I wont sleep another night at all
as this
she intertwines
no no no
go away you dark death
you
you sister
I dont want it
you unquenchable love
heaping fire flame
cinder ashes taste so sweet
you deadly brother
spear and sparrow cross
how dare you speak alone to sister!
but... but ..but
darling dear
darling
you are
sister
　
　
　
　

Spin Out

better do something
with me
whirling about
spinning out
held me down
trying to drown myself
until I looked into your eyes
hovering over me.
I cant keep this calm
and I fear Im losing the battle.
how long do you expect me not to be human ?
when the creatures of old are nipping at my heels
dont you know they want me ?
so where have you gone ?
Hold me
Hold me down
Pin me down
So I can look in your eyes
get me off this life
get me off this ride
so I can come down
down
down
down
I cant go over
I cant go back
to discover
another lever to pull
Pinned down
with all your weight
head looking straight
hold my face
tears splattering
but....
its your kiss
that stills me
　

Home For The First Time

did you follow me home into the green grasses
lie down ?
wrap me in your etheral warmth
never leave me
turn it black and whiter
then turn it hues of blue as I fall deeply backwards
into this you catch me.
Precious Spirit
Pull me into you 7 times again
and take all of it
all of my breath away
and I will swim in you forever.
Home for the first time
electric rays into your arms
a new
as you recreate in me
you
I dont wanna come up ever again
but soon I know you will call me
and I will take the hand you give me
　
　
　
　
　

Father Mystery

Dear love
laden
Father mystery
caught me off guard with your galaxy of divinity
straight lined into my veins
as I stare into the sky
brink of night comes watching me.
whats happening to me ?
never knew me
never knew
who is this
gazing into this
I cant gain control
all of it I wanted
but you take my hands gently from it
and its scary to let you have everything.
but I need you to.
Father mystery
Brother
I'll give you my universe
make your waves
as I fall backwards into this midnight
and slowly elevate my soul for you.
telling me everything so easily
so easy I fight it
but hold me down now
hold me together now
bring it together now
two for one
for three
for one
　

Plumes Of Fire

Ive crawled outside of my self
this old snake died
and thank God my stars are fed
on heavens bread.

I dont know you
as you stand before me
as I leaned over the waters
your silence of words
cast a shadow off the trees
and I heard
you are
me.

get inside me sister
my voice is raw
Ive been shouting
fighting
struggling

whys it got to hurt so much ?
clawing at my own flesh
trying to get outta this mess
my humaness
is evident
I Love you Lord
I'll not give it a rest

I feel you growing around my heart
my heart



the horizon radiating plumes of diabolic blues
encompass the sky
this sky
swallow up my sky !

this aint my pace
this aint

every erupting cell destroying all the others
all
running
burning pages
burning voices
burning lies

a love alive
alive in a new way
destorys the others
the others
dealt down with a lovely sigh
goodbye

sister inside
He makes a new

she lives
alive

Free To Love

I pray your heart to keep
put your precious words into my mouth
I eat them down
let them wrestle everything else away.
come through my skin
and live and shine.

my head hurts
my insides ache
and nothing seems to straighten itself out

like a victim of aortic arrest crack me open
bare before you
fill me
push everything else out
inhabit all of me

crack my skull open and pour out broken glass crushed to sand
return me
God through the Son

Im only half
and I choose
now to
love

set this heart on fire
send it through every vein
because If I can
I can love
and I dont care anymore if it hurts

and...

Im free

to move in you
and by you
and for you
for you
for you

I love you

if Im broken , I know your there to pick up the dirty pieces
but here I am
Im yours

and...
Im Free
to love
　
　
　

Sinking

oh what have you done
becoming tears to my eyes?
Im drifting in this mystery
taking breaths complicates all theory
wont you
wont you
help me ?
Im afraid
flooding in
I try and run away
but I just laugh
caught by warmth and searing heat.
I ask Him take care of me
as I fall from this cliff
into the sea
Drown me in this mystery
and If
I die then still I am His
but drown me in this love
and let me live.
Down , down into the warm waters beneath the cold
oppositely opposing
I want it all.
Father I am yours
given my broken heart
carved up on dried bones
left in the sun.
Repair my life
Restore these fields
once cold with ice.
Taken from the trees
housed in the valley of thorns.
Now shed my skin on the shores.
falling deeper
deeper
sinking
faster
till He says
swim
pounding on my chest
a thousand pounds of mortalness
comes alive and infuses fast
all of you.
Convulsing throws of light
hold me fast
come around
dont take your eyes off me
drinking in.
spinning weightlessness
coming to an end
to an end
His arms all around me
tears flow into the sea
I want it now
please
what you want to give
took so long for me to see
and so I plead
more than anything
just.....
let it be