Plumes Of Fire

Ive crawled outside of my self
this old snake died
and thank God my stars are fed
on heavens bread.

I dont know you
as you stand before me
as I leaned over the waters
your silence of words
cast a shadow off the trees
and I heard
you are
me.

get inside me sister
my voice is raw
Ive been shouting
fighting
struggling

whys it got to hurt so much ?
clawing at my own flesh
trying to get outta this mess
my humaness
is evident
I Love you Lord
I'll not give it a rest

I feel you growing around my heart
my heart



the horizon radiating plumes of diabolic blues
encompass the sky
this sky
swallow up my sky !

this aint my pace
this aint

every erupting cell destroying all the others
all
running
burning pages
burning voices
burning lies

a love alive
alive in a new way
destorys the others
the others
dealt down with a lovely sigh
goodbye

sister inside
He makes a new

she lives
alive

Free To Love

I pray your heart to keep
put your precious words into my mouth
I eat them down
let them wrestle everything else away.
come through my skin
and live and shine.

my head hurts
my insides ache
and nothing seems to straighten itself out

like a victim of aortic arrest crack me open
bare before you
fill me
push everything else out
inhabit all of me

crack my skull open and pour out broken glass crushed to sand
return me
God through the Son

Im only half
and I choose
now to
love

set this heart on fire
send it through every vein
because If I can
I can love
and I dont care anymore if it hurts

and...

Im free

to move in you
and by you
and for you
for you
for you

I love you

if Im broken , I know your there to pick up the dirty pieces
but here I am
Im yours

and...
Im Free
to love
　
　
　

Sinking

oh what have you done
becoming tears to my eyes?
Im drifting in this mystery
taking breaths complicates all theory
wont you
wont you
help me ?
Im afraid
flooding in
I try and run away
but I just laugh
caught by warmth and searing heat.
I ask Him take care of me
as I fall from this cliff
into the sea
Drown me in this mystery
and If
I die then still I am His
but drown me in this love
and let me live.
Down , down into the warm waters beneath the cold
oppositely opposing
I want it all.
Father I am yours
given my broken heart
carved up on dried bones
left in the sun.
Repair my life
Restore these fields
once cold with ice.
Taken from the trees
housed in the valley of thorns.
Now shed my skin on the shores.
falling deeper
deeper
sinking
faster
till He says
swim
pounding on my chest
a thousand pounds of mortalness
comes alive and infuses fast
all of you.
Convulsing throws of light
hold me fast
come around
dont take your eyes off me
drinking in.
spinning weightlessness
coming to an end
to an end
His arms all around me
tears flow into the sea
I want it now
please
what you want to give
took so long for me to see
and so I plead
more than anything
just.....
let it be
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　

Cold Boys Eye's

you are here
you smooth out these desert lines I cough out from
my black lungs.
These are the thoughts of Cold Boys Eye's
and they are his.
Tell him they are his and I relinquish them.

my lover
He is here
fingering silver , steel and lead
all in a barrel
criss crossed patterns for wintering birds
dropping bits of bark for harrowing captives.
Each with a single letter
that led me home through sweet honey birches.

Deathbent
grey sky singlemindedly purposed a gesture of love
but I told it the sky I loved was not so
and I was angered for imposters burning ash lips.

and green grasses now honey pale yellow under winters tide
returning health to the soil I avouch you headway , straight forward
your truth.

not a time for two

He is here
and He rose with His fingerlings of silver
point blank for Cold Boy's Eyes

~ Enough ~

oh but she hurts
the mourning dead
on two leg stances of stories fouled by water of fearlings.

Cold Boys Eye's
fell from the sky like hawk eyes of heaven

and I
I heard it break in me.

My lovers hand straigtened to me to stop
as Cold Boys Eye's fell

~ stop..... ~

 My Lovers eyes warm as my winters fire
full of pain to see in me trepidations death approaching the splitting
of my heartache into fibers.

~ You , have had enough.... and You cannot help...
Cold Boys Eye's must go. ~

Cold Boys Eye's fell to the ground
and he rose and ran into the forest I will never know , or desire.
　
My lover keeps me intwined into a fiberous few
green twined grasses.
Presses hard the silver between His hands
and somewhere , somehow binds to me His remembering story.
A kiss for my cheek.

~ The watching dear lights has shed one more feather ~

This is Dear Brother , Lover

His Luminescence

into the dark cool of His eyes
the watermark luminesence
blue green.

the only thing that keeps me
the only
He is

wrapped in water and tiny sticks
the smell of the earth hides me

let me go
and forget
I dont wanna live here
to a time where you were not
and all was not

lover breathes fire
his chest pounds over everything
and everything is nought.

rain and sky
overcast and smooth outlooking lines
go to bed all you people

I walk with these trees
until his hand slips into mine
and He takes me.
it is all I can do but to survive

I am captivated by his gesture

long sought after moments
the strength of my heart
it is the smooth smooth
feeling of heartache
warming brighter
when He holds me in memorandum
of His light
nearly new , nearly in me.

~ Dance with me ~

I cant break the din of crashing on the inside of my head
it cools into evening
my evening sun
my lovers letters
drift off His finger tips and onto my skin.

deaf from the scattering
oh so He gathers
Bring His heart pressed into mine
I cant make it

His hope and restraint pull me in
and I push against His vest
but why struggle against my Maker ?

I am caught by His eyes
and His luminescence blue
drowns me.
My my my
unforgettable

Colapse

stones grey as setting light amongst the storm clad rain
I walk...
but I cant keep upright.
upon my knees does staggering colapse my fortitude in awe.
shame and guilt have rot away.
I come
because nothing can keep me away.
All in me reverberates the sound I hear
But no auditory perception I perceive but the
hum on my skin.
and....
You
are in everything...
I cant breathe free and I dont want it.
I move a little along on hands and knees
but I cant withstand
and upon the cool and warm stones I let me go.
these rays pierce my soul
a love
that has never been spoken from mortal lips
it cant be formed on tongue...
It is
a substance force unmovable sensation perpetuating thought
of waves with unrelenting pulse,
He Is

I with heavy limbs
without strain
without regret
without resistance
Offer myself
a living sacrifice....
　

White Dark Of Moon

He is a knot in fine grain wood
smooth and lovely
no splinter for me.
Only cedar peaks my senses
heavy without cold hearted hands
sandlewood and night smoke.
Drown me lovely.

cold out of doors
the fire brewed
out of pure coals
incense rises from lips.

I forget who I am
or where I am
and why should I care
if I am with
great content ?

I taste cinnamon
pungent , stinging and sharp

Silent refuge
the snowfall of incubated dreams
fall outside.
Silent refuge in His forest.
Inside here with Him
am I warm.

He moves very slowly
or not slowly at all
all of time is all of Him.

There is no love that I have for Him
that could be contained...He turns
from keeping His fire
at the thought I have had.

He rises as His smile swallows everything.

" In doors , in doors...
let me keep you very well
dont you know wolves smell distress
and blood runs hot ? In the night watches
little dove, nothing shall by any means harm
you if you cleave unto me "

Elixer
in His eyes
and the sun fades into white dark of moon.