Spin Out

better do something
with me
whirling about
spinning out
held me down
trying to drown myself
until I looked into your eyes
hovering over me.
I cant keep this calm
and I fear Im losing the battle.
how long do you expect me not to be human ?
when the creatures of old are nipping at my heels
dont you know they want me ?
so where have you gone ?
Hold me
Hold me down
Pin me down
So I can look in your eyes
get me off this life
get me off this ride
so I can come down
down
down
down
I cant go over
I cant go back
to discover
another lever to pull
Pinned down
with all your weight
head looking straight
hold my face
tears splattering
but....
its your kiss
that stills me
　

Home For The First Time

did you follow me home into the green grasses
lie down ?
wrap me in your etheral warmth
never leave me
turn it black and whiter
then turn it hues of blue as I fall deeply backwards
into this you catch me.
Precious Spirit
Pull me into you 7 times again
and take all of it
all of my breath away
and I will swim in you forever.
Home for the first time
electric rays into your arms
a new
as you recreate in me
you
I dont wanna come up ever again
but soon I know you will call me
and I will take the hand you give me
　
　
　
　
　

Father Mystery

Dear love
laden
Father mystery
caught me off guard with your galaxy of divinity
straight lined into my veins
as I stare into the sky
brink of night comes watching me.
whats happening to me ?
never knew me
never knew
who is this
gazing into this
I cant gain control
all of it I wanted
but you take my hands gently from it
and its scary to let you have everything.
but I need you to.
Father mystery
Brother
I'll give you my universe
make your waves
as I fall backwards into this midnight
and slowly elevate my soul for you.
telling me everything so easily
so easy I fight it
but hold me down now
hold me together now
bring it together now
two for one
for three
for one
　

Plumes Of Fire

Ive crawled outside of my self
this old snake died
and thank God my stars are fed
on heavens bread.

I dont know you
as you stand before me
as I leaned over the waters
your silence of words
cast a shadow off the trees
and I heard
you are
me.

get inside me sister
my voice is raw
Ive been shouting
fighting
struggling

whys it got to hurt so much ?
clawing at my own flesh
trying to get outta this mess
my humaness
is evident
I Love you Lord
I'll not give it a rest

I feel you growing around my heart
my heart



the horizon radiating plumes of diabolic blues
encompass the sky
this sky
swallow up my sky !

this aint my pace
this aint

every erupting cell destroying all the others
all
running
burning pages
burning voices
burning lies

a love alive
alive in a new way
destorys the others
the others
dealt down with a lovely sigh
goodbye

sister inside
He makes a new

she lives
alive

Free To Love

I pray your heart to keep
put your precious words into my mouth
I eat them down
let them wrestle everything else away.
come through my skin
and live and shine.

my head hurts
my insides ache
and nothing seems to straighten itself out

like a victim of aortic arrest crack me open
bare before you
fill me
push everything else out
inhabit all of me

crack my skull open and pour out broken glass crushed to sand
return me
God through the Son

Im only half
and I choose
now to
love

set this heart on fire
send it through every vein
because If I can
I can love
and I dont care anymore if it hurts

and...

Im free

to move in you
and by you
and for you
for you
for you

I love you

if Im broken , I know your there to pick up the dirty pieces
but here I am
Im yours

and...
Im Free
to love
　
　
　

Sinking

oh what have you done
becoming tears to my eyes?
Im drifting in this mystery
taking breaths complicates all theory
wont you
wont you
help me ?
Im afraid
flooding in
I try and run away
but I just laugh
caught by warmth and searing heat.
I ask Him take care of me
as I fall from this cliff
into the sea
Drown me in this mystery
and If
I die then still I am His
but drown me in this love
and let me live.
Down , down into the warm waters beneath the cold
oppositely opposing
I want it all.
Father I am yours
given my broken heart
carved up on dried bones
left in the sun.
Repair my life
Restore these fields
once cold with ice.
Taken from the trees
housed in the valley of thorns.
Now shed my skin on the shores.
falling deeper
deeper
sinking
faster
till He says
swim
pounding on my chest
a thousand pounds of mortalness
comes alive and infuses fast
all of you.
Convulsing throws of light
hold me fast
come around
dont take your eyes off me
drinking in.
spinning weightlessness
coming to an end
to an end
His arms all around me
tears flow into the sea
I want it now
please
what you want to give
took so long for me to see
and so I plead
more than anything
just.....
let it be
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　

Cold Boys Eye's

you are here
you smooth out these desert lines I cough out from
my black lungs.
These are the thoughts of Cold Boys Eye's
and they are his.
Tell him they are his and I relinquish them.

my lover
He is here
fingering silver , steel and lead
all in a barrel
criss crossed patterns for wintering birds
dropping bits of bark for harrowing captives.
Each with a single letter
that led me home through sweet honey birches.

Deathbent
grey sky singlemindedly purposed a gesture of love
but I told it the sky I loved was not so
and I was angered for imposters burning ash lips.

and green grasses now honey pale yellow under winters tide
returning health to the soil I avouch you headway , straight forward
your truth.

not a time for two

He is here
and He rose with His fingerlings of silver
point blank for Cold Boy's Eyes

~ Enough ~

oh but she hurts
the mourning dead
on two leg stances of stories fouled by water of fearlings.

Cold Boys Eye's
fell from the sky like hawk eyes of heaven

and I
I heard it break in me.

My lovers hand straigtened to me to stop
as Cold Boys Eye's fell

~ stop..... ~

 My Lovers eyes warm as my winters fire
full of pain to see in me trepidations death approaching the splitting
of my heartache into fibers.

~ You , have had enough.... and You cannot help...
Cold Boys Eye's must go. ~

Cold Boys Eye's fell to the ground
and he rose and ran into the forest I will never know , or desire.
　
My lover keeps me intwined into a fiberous few
green twined grasses.
Presses hard the silver between His hands
and somewhere , somehow binds to me His remembering story.
A kiss for my cheek.

~ The watching dear lights has shed one more feather ~

This is Dear Brother , Lover