Forgotten Embrace

help me
as the cool sound flows down slowly
ebbing slower
fills my lungs
fills my mind
with
you
how ever
ever
Ever I Must
Submit
thrashing bout with such constraint
but even
even if I die
I'll find another piece of you
I dont know how you put up with me
your wrestless child
fightin you at every turn
to pull the briar thorns from my hands
and my feet
and my face.
Im here
Im just here Lord
I dont know what
I dont know where
but let my knees soak up the soil
from the tears that Ive shed
I'll just be quiet
even though I cant hear
I'll lay down
because Im failing off the bread of my own
and I cant do it any longer.
so quiet down
and please pierce my heart

oh darling dear
yes I hear
and though you may not
I will.
so broken
broken little flowers
all strewn about
did you think I have forgotten you?
Do you not remember my love ?
Did you think any any anything could seperate it
from you ?
You have forgotten

He comes to the forest
and picks me up again
and again
and so how I have forgotten His embrace
His wonderful touch
my wrestless heart
affords so much effort
so much fight
just let me be
here
for now
for now
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
　

Paper Plane Forest

now tell me dear
who this
who this me
she is ?
shut me down
put me inside paper airplanes
motionless
she wont get in and she wont get out
these two are not and three
for heavens sake we must not let it be !
Death past now and future
covered in congenial controversies
let some kind of words wash over me
knives and little colored splinters
Id go
oh Id go
but they wont let me
false insinuations grease all these gears
and I'll set this beast on fire
and she'll fail
she'll fall in burning cinders heaped upon the ground
in rubble we'll amass our losses.
I love it
and we'll make it loud
God the louder the better !
Who are you ?!
You ! Shooting paper arrows at me ?
I'll go down , dont you worry
and I'll live a hundred of these
when she drowns
and lovely little love
they wont let me go
let me go and live
but im afraid
as they sell my sails for measily tiny bids
and
and
and
as this atrocity ocurrs
she'll finally fail
falling down
maybe I wont sleep another night at all
as this
she intertwines
no no no
go away you dark death
you
you sister
I dont want it
you unquenchable love
heaping fire flame
cinder ashes taste so sweet
you deadly brother
spear and sparrow cross
how dare you speak alone to sister!
but... but ..but
darling dear
darling
you are
sister
　
　
　
　

Spin Out

better do something
with me
whirling about
spinning out
held me down
trying to drown myself
until I looked into your eyes
hovering over me.
I cant keep this calm
and I fear Im losing the battle.
how long do you expect me not to be human ?
when the creatures of old are nipping at my heels
dont you know they want me ?
so where have you gone ?
Hold me
Hold me down
Pin me down
So I can look in your eyes
get me off this life
get me off this ride
so I can come down
down
down
down
I cant go over
I cant go back
to discover
another lever to pull
Pinned down
with all your weight
head looking straight
hold my face
tears splattering
but....
its your kiss
that stills me
　

Home For The First Time

did you follow me home into the green grasses
lie down ?
wrap me in your etheral warmth
never leave me
turn it black and whiter
then turn it hues of blue as I fall deeply backwards
into this you catch me.
Precious Spirit
Pull me into you 7 times again
and take all of it
all of my breath away
and I will swim in you forever.
Home for the first time
electric rays into your arms
a new
as you recreate in me
you
I dont wanna come up ever again
but soon I know you will call me
and I will take the hand you give me
　
　
　
　
　

Father Mystery

Dear love
laden
Father mystery
caught me off guard with your galaxy of divinity
straight lined into my veins
as I stare into the sky
brink of night comes watching me.
whats happening to me ?
never knew me
never knew
who is this
gazing into this
I cant gain control
all of it I wanted
but you take my hands gently from it
and its scary to let you have everything.
but I need you to.
Father mystery
Brother
I'll give you my universe
make your waves
as I fall backwards into this midnight
and slowly elevate my soul for you.
telling me everything so easily
so easy I fight it
but hold me down now
hold me together now
bring it together now
two for one
for three
for one
　

Plumes Of Fire

Ive crawled outside of my self
this old snake died
and thank God my stars are fed
on heavens bread.

I dont know you
as you stand before me
as I leaned over the waters
your silence of words
cast a shadow off the trees
and I heard
you are
me.

get inside me sister
my voice is raw
Ive been shouting
fighting
struggling

whys it got to hurt so much ?
clawing at my own flesh
trying to get outta this mess
my humaness
is evident
I Love you Lord
I'll not give it a rest

I feel you growing around my heart
my heart



the horizon radiating plumes of diabolic blues
encompass the sky
this sky
swallow up my sky !

this aint my pace
this aint

every erupting cell destroying all the others
all
running
burning pages
burning voices
burning lies

a love alive
alive in a new way
destorys the others
the others
dealt down with a lovely sigh
goodbye

sister inside
He makes a new

she lives
alive

Free To Love

I pray your heart to keep
put your precious words into my mouth
I eat them down
let them wrestle everything else away.
come through my skin
and live and shine.

my head hurts
my insides ache
and nothing seems to straighten itself out

like a victim of aortic arrest crack me open
bare before you
fill me
push everything else out
inhabit all of me

crack my skull open and pour out broken glass crushed to sand
return me
God through the Son

Im only half
and I choose
now to
love

set this heart on fire
send it through every vein
because If I can
I can love
and I dont care anymore if it hurts

and...

Im free

to move in you
and by you
and for you
for you
for you

I love you

if Im broken , I know your there to pick up the dirty pieces
but here I am
Im yours

and...
Im Free
to love